What is wrong with me?

[cassiesmom]

You've gotten some great advice. I am sorry I don't have much to add to that advice. However, I wanted to let you know that I will be thinking of you. I have been in and out of depression for quite some time but have never done anything about it - my dogs have helped me a lot. Don't know what I'd do without them.


Anyhow, I will keep you in my thoughts.

Kay

Same here - thinking and praying!
My cat has helped me enormously - not sure what I would have done without her.
How is the weather in Italy this time of year, can you get outdoors and get some sunshine? I have had an ongoing depression and it definitely gets worse with shorter daylight hours. It's a bright, sunny day in Chicago today even though freezing cold. On days like this I try to go out in the natural light for a bit and it does seem to help.

(((hug))), elyse

[kittycats_delight]

wow...you guys are so sweet and caring and compassionate. I thank you all so much. I will be going to the doctor on Monday to see what we can find out. I will be asking for a thyroid test and also trying the vitamin b. I will also ask what she thinks about anti depressants for me. I think she will most likely want to wait for the thyroid results before prescribing anti-depressants though. But we will see.

You know I have been thinking about it and I think being in this house with my severely depressive brother in law and eternal complaining father in law has a bit to do with things. Also maybe the fact that we are solely relying on Guido's income doesn't help either. My father in law in a compulsive spender and he brings home a huge sum of money but cannot make it to the end of the month and is always complaining and driving everyone else nuts about money. He brings home about 2500 euro a month and only pays the rent which is less than 500.

My brother in law is disgusting. He doesn't wash himself and is sat in front of the playstation almost continually while he is in the house. He does nothing and pays for nothing. If he isn't in front of the tv or playstation he is working. I really dislike him and he even drives my husband nuts too. He stinks and he is a know it all but really he is a know nothing at all. You cannot tell him anything. He is just so disrespectful. If you are sleeping it doesn't matter to him he will make the most noise possible the same as the father in law. At 5 in the morning they actually stand outside our closed bedroom door and have a roaring conversation. But if he is sleeping the entire world must stop. We are not even suppose to flush the toilet in case it wakes him. You know my answer to that. 'f u buddy' He is the center of the universe and everyone is suppose to bend to his wishes and needs.

Can you tell he makes me angry. Sorry I guess I just need to get it out.

The other thing is Guido being our only bread winner. Guido makes decent money but we pay for everything. If we want to eat we have to buy ALL the groceries even though there are 4 adults here not just Guido and me. We pay all the bills except the rent. Daddy pays the rent and brother pays nothing. And besides that we have our car payment and insurance. I know these are every day things but when I see brother in law and father in law spending freely and us putting all the money into the house it is very frustrating. And as long as we are doing this and I am not emplyed we will not be able to get out of this place. I guess I feel trapped in this house with these rude, arrogant, disrespectful A-holes.

Wow...it feels good getting all this out. I need to get a job but the language is a problem. I cannot work inside the american base as I am not an italian citizen. I think I am just going to have to hit the job agencies and find some crappy job to get us enough money to get our own place. *SIGH*


Ok vent finished. I apologize for blasting away but I think I really needed to get some of this stuff off my chest. Thanks you guys.


Oh yeah cassiesmom the weather is fine here warm most days and usually sunny. I think I will take the advise of you and a few others and get my butt out for a walk to get away from the house a little.

Thanks again everyone

((((((((HUGS)))))))))))
Michelle

[Felicia's Mom]

I hope you feel better soon. I have no more advice for you. I've been pretty depressed lately myself.

[Vela]

Well goodness just from hearing that I have no wonder why you feel depressed! You don't have to feel bad about getting it out, you have to get it out somewhere and here you can do it without fear or repercussions at home hehe. You will feel better too once you get some sort of a job and can see a light at the end of the tunnel, as far as getting out of that house. That would be upsetting for anyone, I don't think I could deal well with it either!

[krazyaboutkatz]

Michelle, I had no idea that you have been feeling this way. If I were in your shoes, I think that I'd be feeling depressed and unhappy too. I hope that things will start getting better for you. Please take care. (((HUGS)))

[Maya & Inka's mommy]

Oh dear Michelle, I had no idea either you were feeling so badly....
I've been through a severe depression like yours 8 years ago. I am glad you agreed to see a doctor, because it is very hard or almost impossible to get better without medication. I was on Prozac for almost a year; it was tough, but it worked!! Don't worry if the meds don't seem to work and even if it gets a bit worse; it is normal, the meds only start helping after 2 or 3 weeks. Don't give up, we are all here to pull you through, sweety!!

Tons of gentle hugs !!!!