Oh Michelle ((((hugs)))) I had no idea you felt that way. I have been there too, like many others here, and it's a miserable feeling. I would also recommend talking to your doctor about this, and probably get on an antidepressant. It could even be that the move to Italy triggered your depression, or maybe you feel that you don't know enough of the language to communicate to people on a daily basis, so you feel isolated. Not that I'm saying that moving to Italy was bad for you, just different, and sometimes that's all it takes. I have been battling depression since I was about 17, and it has always been ups and downs for me. I now know that I will always be on an anti depressant of some sort, and I'm ok with that fact. I don't like the person I am when I'm off the medication. ((((hugs)))) if you ever need to talk just PM me!