What is wrong with me?

[kittycats_delight]

Thanks again you guys. I will follow the advice. I will go on monday to get the vitamin b and ask my doctor about getting my thyroid checked. If there is nothing wrong with my thyroid then we will move on to something else.

Krista a counsellor is kinda hard for me here as I don't speak enough Italian and it is rather hard to find one that speaks english well enough. I think I am gonna have to go the medicinal route on this one. I will be in touch Krista. When I have a decent day I will chat with you.

Right now I am heading to bed as it is almost 3:00 am here. So I will check in again tomorrow with everyone.

Thanks guys. You are the best. I really do appreciate all the support and well wishes. (((((((((((((((HUGS TO ALL))))))))))))))))

Michelle

[kimlovescats]

You definitely have described depression! I have Major Depressive Illness and also Bi-Polar II Disorder. Medication can be a lifesaver! Get to a doctor, get your thyroid checked, and get on some medicine! ALSO, stay in touch with all of your friends here on PT!

HUGS,
Kim

[JenBKR]

Oh Michelle ((((hugs)))) I had no idea you felt that way. I have been there too, like many others here, and it's a miserable feeling. I would also recommend talking to your doctor about this, and probably get on an antidepressant. It could even be that the move to Italy triggered your depression, or maybe you feel that you don't know enough of the language to communicate to people on a daily basis, so you feel isolated. Not that I'm saying that moving to Italy was bad for you, just different, and sometimes that's all it takes. I have been battling depression since I was about 17, and it has always been ups and downs for me. I now know that I will always be on an anti depressant of some sort, and I'm ok with that fact. I don't like the person I am when I'm off the medication. ((((hugs)))) if you ever need to talk just PM me!

[Pawsitive Thinking]

Sweetheart you are depressed - could be a chemical imbalance or something that can't be explained.

Don't struggle on without medical intervention - you'd have a broken limb fixed straight away!!!

Good luck from someone else who knows..........

[Marigold2]

I am so sorry to hear that you have been depressed. I really knew nothing about this disease until a family member was treated for it. It was very very difficult for everyone in our family. I have never been depressed so at first it was hard for me to relate, but I learned. It is a chemical inbalance that is easily treated with the right meds and the right Dr. The trick is to get treatment in the beginning and not wait till it gets so bad that it takes over your life. When this family member started on meds the difference was like night and day. This is not something that you can treat yourself. If you had cancer or kidney failure all the love and good advice you get can only go so far. What you need is the right medicine and the right Dr. I wish you all the best of luck. Know that it will get better, you will once again be happy and your life will be good. Oh and yes, birth control pills can make depression worst. But usually only for the first couple of weeks although everyone is different.

[Anita Cholaine]

Michelle, I am so sorry you're feeling this way. I can't really help much, but you've gotten great advice on this thread.
((((HUGS)))) Please now there's someone in Argentina thinking about you now (and actually all PT is here for you )

Natali

[wolflady]

I'm so glad that you're going to look into this. That is the first big step to feeling better. Also, what you said about being contageous isn't entirely false. Living with/being around other people with depression or bi-polar conditions can affect you and your mood.
I have a very dear friend who has pretty severe depression, and while she was living with one girl ,who was also very depressed, and another who was bi-polar, it really had a negative affect on her already depressive condition. The environment was horrible, and none of them even knew about it. Once my friend moved out...she felt so much happier. Wierd, huh?

Another thing you can do to help elevate your mood is St. John's Wort. I have actually been off my medication for some time now (I really need to go back on since I've been really down since the seperation), but I've been taking the St. John's Wort, which actually has been helping.

If you ever need anything, I'm just a PM away.

**hugs**

[cassiesmom]

what you said about being contageous isn't entirely false. Living with/being around other people with depression or bi-polar conditions can affect you and your mood.

**hugs**

hear, hear ... I know I am hard to be around when my depression is really bad so I try not to be a burden to my family and friends at those times... hope you are having a good day today!

[Daisy and Delilah]

I'm sorry to hear about this Michelle. After reading what you're currently living with, no wonder you're depressed!!! It sounds like you're a prisoner in your own home and you're forced to tolerate people that are toxic to your life. You are probably having feelings of hopelessness due to the fact that you are enduring such garbage. Nobody wants to live like that. It sounds like a case of full blown anger, disgust, and an overwhelming feeling of the need for revenge(all normal reactions in this situation).

My heart breaks for you. I hope you can get some help soon and find a way to be rid of these people that are controlling your life. You certainly don't deserve it. I'm glad you got it off your chest. That's the first big step to a possible solution!! Good luck in getting this resolved asap. Please keep us updated.

[Catty1]

Maybe your doc can give you meds to slip into your in-laws' drinks?

Be sure to tell your doctor about the situation you live with...docs sometimes have resources we don't know about. Tell her about the bills and job situation.

HUGS!