Thanks you guys all of you. It means so much. You have no idea how much. I am actually fighting back tears just from reading your posts. I had never thought of me as a person to become depressed so I guess that is why I am have a hard time accepting it. I have kinda known for awhile though that is most likely what I am dealing with. I have lived with a few people over the years that have had depression. I actually took my brothers ex-girlfriend to the doctor for this a few years ago just before she came to live with us. I have also been living with my husband about 4 years and he has severe depression. He is doing well though and has not taken a pill for the entire time we have been living together. He has had maybe 4 or 5 episodes in these last 4 years and I am now also living with my brother in law who has severe depression and is on meds and goes to a psychologist once a week.

If I didn't know better I would say it was contagious but this I know is impossible. I think it would make it easier for me to deal with if I could actually think that way though. Cause right now I just can't explain things and that is worse than anything.

Michelle I will pick up some vitamin B complex on Monday when the pharmacy opens as there is no where else here to get it. Remember I am in Italy and there are no walmarts here unfortunately.

Karen thanks so much for the suggestion about the thyroid. My mom was just recently diagnosed with Grave's Disease so I will definately have the doctor check my thyroid. Maybe it is that as I can't seem to lose any weight and I am barely eating.

Thank you all again. ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))) to you all. You are great people and you mean the world to me.


Michelle