What is wrong with me?

[Kalei]

Welcome to the wonderful world of depression...not! I am actually a person that gets depressed alot. There in 2005 I was depressed for a whole entire year, I literally would do nothing but sit on my bed stare at the wall with just candles on and my gothic like music playing. It is so empty feeling and like you just wanna die. Luckily I came out of that, now I only get depressed off and on and try to control it.

I had been taking birth control pills to and my mother told me to go off of them cause she thought they were making me depressed and ever since I went off of them I am not getting depressed as often as I was. Sometimes I wonder if I need depression pills because of how I can get depressed on and off daily. Anyways take the others advice, they sound like they definately know what they are talking about! I think I will try their advice too. I'm sorry you feel so down and I hope you can pull through it soon enough.

[wolflady]

{{Michelle}} I had no idea you've been feeling this way What's scary, is everything you wrote could have come from my own writing. I too have felt this way for a very long time, and I have to think it is part of the reason for my husband's and my seperation.
I too was always a very smiley and happy person, full of love and life, and now...it's just a facade. I put on the face, but it's not how I feel inside. It certainly sounds like depression, hon. Like Vela mentioned in her post, it can be very debilitating. Things you once loved to do, you lose interest in. Oftentimes you feel like curling up and being left alone for a long long time.

Another thing that can cause this is thyroid. Before I was put on anti-depressants, they checked my thyroid first, to see if that was the cause of my depressive state. It's definitely worth it to go see your doctor, so you can be on the road back to yourself.

**hugs**

[kittycats_delight]

Thanks you guys all of you. It means so much. You have no idea how much. I am actually fighting back tears just from reading your posts. I had never thought of me as a person to become depressed so I guess that is why I am have a hard time accepting it. I have kinda known for awhile though that is most likely what I am dealing with. I have lived with a few people over the years that have had depression. I actually took my brothers ex-girlfriend to the doctor for this a few years ago just before she came to live with us. I have also been living with my husband about 4 years and he has severe depression. He is doing well though and has not taken a pill for the entire time we have been living together. He has had maybe 4 or 5 episodes in these last 4 years and I am now also living with my brother in law who has severe depression and is on meds and goes to a psychologist once a week.

If I didn't know better I would say it was contagious but this I know is impossible. I think it would make it easier for me to deal with if I could actually think that way though. Cause right now I just can't explain things and that is worse than anything.

Michelle I will pick up some vitamin B complex on Monday when the pharmacy opens as there is no where else here to get it. Remember I am in Italy and there are no walmarts here unfortunately.

Karen thanks so much for the suggestion about the thyroid. My mom was just recently diagnosed with Grave's Disease so I will definately have the doctor check my thyroid. Maybe it is that as I can't seem to lose any weight and I am barely eating.

Thank you all again. ((((((((((((hugs)))))))))) to you all. You are great people and you mean the world to me.


Michelle

[jenluckenbach]

Been in your shoes. And in my case it was BOTH tyroid and moderate depression. But medications have helped both problems and I feel much better now.

So, at least TALK to your doctor. And many {{{{{HUGS}}}}} are here whenever you need them.