Kim, I can't imagine that anyone would judge you but people are funny sometimes. I can relate to what you've experienced. When I was in the midst of preparations to move to my new home between Christmas and New Year's two years ago, I had 25 outdoor cats that I was sheltering, feeding, altering and giving vet care. Plus I had my own 8 indoor cats, all w/special needs. I was stressed to the max trying to find homes for all the outdoor cats. But I did it, except for a few who died while undergoing surgery or that had such physical problems that they had to be put to sleep. It was a long, grueling haul and I cried buckets of tears. But we gotta do what we gotta do. Aside from the heartbreak of it all, financially it nearly broke me. But I got through it. And it appears that you have, too. Here's wishing you and all of our Pet Talk friends (human and otherwise) a wonderful and blessed new year filled w/joy, love and abundance.

Blessings,
Mary