thank you to you all that have wrote. I am a little better now, though it's only been a week. I am comforted a little by the fact that I was home and ran right out, so I was actually with her when she died. When I think that it makes me feel a little better-as last year the same thing happened to our other cat and we just found him in the morning. Fluffy was my baby and I think it helped to tell you all how I felt. thanks again for all you kindness.