Slick,
I usually lurk and don't post, but I need to respond to this thread. I have gotten to "know" you as a strong, intelligent woman with a great sense of humor, and regret you must go through this. I, too am an 11-year survivor of breast cancer, and I know that attitude can make a crucial difference. Your positive attitude tells me you will be a survivor, too. If you get a chance, read Bernie Siegal's books - he writes a lot about attitude and survivorship. Know also that your PT family is here for you when you need us - don't think you have to tackle this all alone. Take care...you will be in my thoughts.