I think I tried to explain it in all my threads about her. "We have a deal that we buy them now, and sell them back at the end of the summer. They live at his farm and hopefully get pregnant so we can take them back to live at the 4-H farm next summer too." It is the only way that I could have a cow. I just thought it would be the whole summer, not just a month. It's really hard to deal with but I know I can go and visit her any time that I have access to a car for a day.