WEll I hopped off the bus at 6pm to meet Shawn at the station by my house. He walked out of the mall with a bag in his hand. It was the Rum he had bought & was drinking. I didn't say a thing about it. We walked to the clinic & I said, you can't bring that in here so toss it out into the trash.. which he did...

The clinic was 100% usless!!!!!
They quickly said look up the # to an AA meeting, they can help, & then they walked out!!

For crying out loud, Shawn was upset they could have atleast talked to him about the dangers or asked him why he thinks hes drinking all the time or that the turnout is good & wish him the best of luck.. or just ANYTHING!!! Shawn was heart broken!! He took a lot of guts to go in there & bring it up & they walked out on him not giving a rats ass!!!!

Shawn was so upset he said he wanted to go for a bike ride around the mini lake to burn off some energy. He returned 25mins later & all seemed ok.


Shawn started to talk to his dad on MSN while I cooked dinner. When I finished cooking dinner I handed Shawn his plate & he was upset. He asked his dad for some help with his drinking (like driving him to his family dr.). I don't remember how the whole convo went but I'll never forget this line!

-Shawn: Don't you care about me dad?
-Shawn's Dad: I want you to be happy, but don't involve me in your life

OMG I nearly cried & Shawn nearly died in heart break!! His father has never been much of a father, but this was uncalled for!!! Shawn couldn't even reply to him. Shawn said thats it, I want him out of my life, I can't take this anymore, he's never loved us (saddly its kinda true), he never cares, he never wants to listen to what we say (poor shawn went on & on)

I said well you need to tell this to your dad, but Shawn said I can't type anymore, can you do it for me.. So I did.. We told his Father that his wish has come true. He is no longer in Shawns life & he was being blocked for life.

I know Shawns dad is the root of Shawn's problems, as all Shawn wants is for his father to love him. I've spent hours talking to Shawns mother (Shawn has no idea what I know) about Shawns father & how she knows thats why both boys are acting out. Shes doing the best she can & it does show, but the boys still want a father!

I'm hoping Shawn will get better, as I did when I ditched my mother. My mother caused me horrible stress & pain & I've never been happier now that shes been out of my life for 3yrs... I know people have said I look & sound much happier & I do feel much happier.

Shawn lost his job