Jess, I am so sorry. Please don't let this break your spirit. You are a wonderfully caring, capable and talented person. No, I don't know you personally but these characteristics have become so evident in your posts, I cannot help but state them. You must retain faith in the fact that you are worthy of love, affection, and respect as a partner. Of course you are shattered to have your husband not feel that he has in you a soulmate, and I realize that today is a day to grieve that loss. But as you do, please remember that life is still good and one day you will know your place in the new scheme of things and be happy again.