Thank you very much for your support! It means a lot to me that there are people out there who understand what I'm going through...

And yes, there is a lot of unemployment here in Germany; it may get a little bit better compared to the last year, but my area is badly affected, and there are no full time jobs here. I may have to move away from here in case that I lose my job. This fear of existence is always hanging over me like a dark cloud, especially when things get hard at work.

I really hope I can take the next week off, I need some time to recover. I'm feeling very tired and exhausted.

Kirsten