I wish I had some comforting words for you, but I just can't think of any. But if you ever need to talk about depression, I am here. I have been suffering from borderline personality disorder for most of my life, so I know depression well. If you need any tips, maybe I could help you out. I'm so sorry that you can't have children. You should really look into sueing the company, then maybe you will have enough money to adopt.