I'm sorry for the troubles you are having, sometimes life does seem unfair, trust me been there, done that. I promise God isn't doing anything to you, this is all just part of life and what shapes us as we grow up into adults. I know it seems horrible right now but you will come out of it with something in the end. Maybe you could write your aunt a letter and tell her all of the things you want to say, even though you can't see her? I'm sure she would love to hear from you. Sometimes it's easier to put things on paper rather than talking, I often get emotional while talking and end up not saying everything I wanted to say, especially if it's painful. Keep your chin up, as hard as it is now things will get better. I'm sorry you are losing your aunt, I'm sure that is hard. I never had any family so I don't know how that feels, but I'm sure if I had it would upset me too.