Going to a counseler isn't suppose to be fun and the topics brought up there are suppose to be hard to talk about and deal with but the point is to deal with them there in a controled environment with a proffesional. I have been to many counselers and I really never "liked" them but I left my trust in them and things worked out. Maybe now that you are older you would be more open to a counseler and be truly open with them and realize it is ok to get mad or sad and stay and bear through it.

I know you probably didn't imagine the overwhelming response from everybody, but they are just concerned about you, that is a good thing! Often times we get mad, take wrong directions in life, and are confused about things in life, and we cannot see a logical view of what going on and that is were a counseler comes in. You may think you are ok but it may be a tempory thing, and things change fast especially when you have a rough past to remember. I just hope that everything goes well for you and good luck. Hopefully some of this advice from everyone is helpful to you.