Whoa! I just don't know what to say about this. Part of the problem is a case of LES. I'm a mom myself and we had our share of pets as my son was growing up. Personally, I think this could have been handled in a much better and more sensitive way. This is a very tough situation and it's easy to understand how you must feel. Go ahead and cry, let it all out. Is there a teacher, counselor, a parent of a friend or another adult that you're comfortable talking to? If so, PLEASE talk to them ASAP. Right now you have a lot of stuff to work through and you're going to need support and the advice of a responsible, caring adult to help you through this. Don't keep it in because you're afraid they'll think you're being dumb about losing your kitties. Go to someone you trust, they won't think any less of you. Prayers for your kitties and that you'll find someone to talk to.

(((( HUGS))))