Life sure has a way of throwing a spanner in the works as the saying here goes, hang on in there Donna , think of how much you have gone through, how much you have achieved, and be proud of yourself, you are a wonderful caring, genuine person, and i am sorry that life keeps throwing those spanners at you, but you are a very strong lady and i know no matter what you will come out of it more enriched if nothing else. HUGS.