Lizzie,

I did love Tiggs. I wanted SO badly for him to live with me, but he had been an only cat for so many years, that it just didn't work out.

My Dad was found dead in his apartment (he was dead for 4 days when they found him) with Tiggs right by his side, not allowing anyone near his body. He had been locked in the apartment with Dad for over 3 days in the August heat with no air conditioning.

I had the same issue of ashes with my Dad's. My Dad and I talked in detail about his wanting his ashes scattered, so there was no question. But I also felt that scattering ALL of Dad's ashes would've been too "final". So, I bought a crystal jar with cover and placed some of them in there and sealed it. I did scatter the rest. After almost 2 years of looking at the jar of ashes everyday which depressed the hell out of me, I woke up one morning KNOWING that it was time to scatter the rest. I just had that feeling deep down inside. So that's what I did and I knew then that it was the right decision.

Tiggs' ashes are the final connection I have to my Dad. I guess maybe that's why I'm so confused.