Dear Lut, Often our deepest feelings are the hardest to express. Maybe that's why the words won't come to tell you how very sorry I am to hear of what you're going through. I won't say I know how you feel because I've never been there but I do understand your fear and apprehension over the possibility of being away from your family, enduring another series of painful tests, and worrying about what they may reveal. Once your doctors know what the problem is, the healing process can start. I'm a deacon in my church and have already called my Pastor. You are going to be one of our prayer concerns at our Sunday services and will be remembered every day by our prayer team and me. Just remember that you're not alone. If it were possible I'm confident that everyone here on PT would be in Belgium at your side to see you through this. Many prayers are being prayed for you each day. God bless you!