I am very sorry for your loss!! ....if you ever need anyone to talk to PLEASE Pm me I totally understand what you are going through I lost Little bit my sweet baby boy in August then my father to Terminal cancer(sarcoma of the jaw) this september and then in the end of november my uncle and I have just found out that I will soon be losing my granfather to lung cancer ...cancer just sucks!!! so please if you need to talk I absolutly understand Im just a PM away