I have got myself in a state, most of you will know the story by now of Dianne my neighbour and her cats, Duchess and Victoria, who I had spayed and the kittens rescued.
I feel in a no win situation now, which I also feel I have brought upon myself, with good intentions.
Duchess and Victoria have moved in to my backyard, while i am more than happy to have them there and take care of them, i even posted pics of how happy and content they were, I am torn by what to do about it, while Dianne is still here , not really a problem,but if she moves on she will want to take them with her, that is my predicament, I love them both and know their lives will not be as it should be, but by the same token ,I don't think i can take on two more kitties, I even turned down the chance to have Duchess's beautiful tortie girl because of that reason.
For now with donations I am happily feeding them twice daily, but there is much more to that as we all know, de-worming, de-fleaing, vaccinations and vet fees if anything goes wrong, also I don't really think Dianne will surrender the cats anyhow., they would have to be outdoor cats, which they are already, but the difference being if I owned them I would be building an outdoor warm shelter for them, my allergy just could not handle four cats, i have been having major problems lately because of too many kitties, and also they are not house-trained to my knowledge.
So you see folks, I feel in such a bind, infact I feel sick to the stomach, knowing there is no real happy ending here, those girls just love it here and hardly venture back home, just now and then, even my cats are sort of accepting them, no big spats as of yet.
I am finding myself becoming depressed and anxious because i just cannot see an answer to my problem,when she moves on and she will eventually, i am going to be heartbroken, i won't ever see the girls again, and i know their lives will be awful again, that is hard to live with,but i cannot really afford to give them the best either, but yes better than Dianne, but I am scared of taking on too much, and falling flat on my face, in otherwords all kitties will suffer, that is not good either, I guess if she moves it will be taken out of my hands and beyond my control anyway. I know there is no real answer to my problem but i just need to get it off my chest and share, thanks for listening.
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