I still cannot quite believe she is gone, it hurts so much, I know even though her life was not great, she was a happy kitty, she had her birth mother with her and her grandmother, i saw them playing together yesterday and licking each other , they were so cute, it is just so sad, and seems so futile, I spayed her for a better life and now this, geez life sucks sometimes doesn't it?

It is gonna be hard tonight when I call the others for a feed, as she won't be coming and I will find that incredibly hard and sad to deal with.,it is just ironic she had lived in my neighbourhood for over a year and was safe from the road, then i get her spayed and this happens, so unfair.,excuse me waffling on but I just don't get why these things happen like they do.,sometimes you just feel so disheartened and wonder is it worth it all?

You know Zara does live on, we rescued one of her babies a sweet wee girl, I keep telling myself that part of Zara is still alive in her baby.