I had to make the agonizing decision yesterday afternoon to put Jade to sleep. I had gone to the vet to visit her and totally didn't expect to have to make that decision yesterday. She had been admitted to the hospital the day before. She hasn't been feeling well or eating and had lost a little weight. But she goes through spells like these. Her tummy was bloated and at first the vet thought it was because of her diabetes and having intestinal problems( I don't know if I got that explanantion right or not) but Saturday I took her in because she was dehydrated againi and not eating and the vet wanted to do an xray and she thought that Jade had a tumor on her pancreas. I had two choices as of then, to do the exploratory surgery and hopefully it would be something that could be fixed or to put her down. At that point I planned on doing the surgery. But yesterday when I came to visit her the vet said she had had 2 or 3 seizures that morning and was real worn out from them. She explained to me that I was going to have to decide that if they went ahead and did the surgery if they went in and found something that couldn't be fixed whether to humanely put her to sleep on the table or to sew he back up just to have to put her to sleep afterwards. She said I should say my goodbyes today. She showed me a huge syringe full of fluid that they had drained from her abdomen and said there was alot more. I was in shock and devastated. Jade is my sweet baby, who looks at me with those big jade colored eyes of hers. As long as I was there with her she knew she was safe. This all happened so fast, and it wasn't enough time for me to absorb it all and prepare myself for it. So for the next four hours or so I sat in the room holding Jade and telling her how much I love her and how much I will miss her. All the time her arms were wrapped aroung my neck as she was purring. Two of my favorite nurses came in and we talked. Jade was one of their favorites because she was just the sweetest cat ever and always so good. This never gets easier no matter how many times you go through it especially when you are so close to one like I was with Jade. I miss her so much and can't stand it that she isn't here with me. My heart is truly broken.



I wanted to thank all of you for understanding my pain and supporting me. This is so hard and I know all of you understand how I am feeling. Yesterday I went back to the vet to get an emprint of Jade's paw( something i always do with all my fur babies). One of my favorite nurses was there again and brought Jade to me. She looked so sweet like she was just sleeping. She always was so clean. Nikki(the nurse) had promised the night I put Jade to sleep that she would clean her up herself for me. Jade had had some diarrhea while i was visiting her and was a little messy. So when I saw her all clean and brushed out it made me feel so good. Nikki had given Jade a bath and blow dried her and combed her all out for me after I left the night I put her to sleep. She helped me with the paw prints. I ahve to sto now before I start crying again. I am at wrok and if I start crying I won't be able to stop. Thank you again.
These are older pictures but here is my sweet baby Jade



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