My mom talks about her "grandpups" all the time
I have friends who are always on my case to have kids (I am only 23), and when my boyfriend's mother heard that, she said to them "some people have children, some people have dogs, there is no difference" That really made me laugh. That being said I would like two or three, at the most! But that will not be happening for a LONG LONG time.

Now that I approach 40 years of age in the next month it is too late, something I regret and will regret for the rest of my life. I resent both husbands
That is heartbreaking. I really hope you get your baby. My granny had her last baby in her early 50's (the first when she was 18) so its not too late.