I think you made the best decison for Lilith. It was unselfish of you to think what was best for her and not yourself. Losing, part of our family is never easy. Your angel will live in your heart forever. I'm truly sorry for the pain you have gone through. I know its not easy. You have been in my thoughts!! I should have pm'd you please forgive me for not doing so because I really do care about you and your feelings.....