Jennifert,

I also have anxiety "panic" attacks. They're awful. After my vacation in Connecticut, where I was born and raised, I cried all the way back to Michigan. When I reached the "Welcome to Michigan" sign, that's when the panic set in. I was depressed for days, wouldn't talk to anyone, kept to myself in my apartment and hugged all my cats (they ARE a great comfort to me). I realized what a big mistake I made moving so far away. But God doesn't give you mistakes, he teaches you lessons. It taught me that the grass ISN'T greener on the other side.

I began to realize that I left a place that I love (although at the time I felt I was leaving bad memories), where I have so many friends and what is left of my family, to come back to a place where I know literally no one and have only one really close friend, Kathy. I can't hop in my car and drive to Bolton Lake (my FAVORITE place to think), or go visit my daughter or my friends.

If I only had one wish, it would be to go back to CT, living the life I had before I came out here.

If you ever need someone to talk to, or email, I'll PM you with both. Knowing someone who is in the same boat and being able to talk to that person helps you to cope with it.

(((((HUGS)))))

Donna