Gina, I am still new to Pt, but even so it is obvious you love and take good care of your animal companions. It is horrible when something is out of our control that affects those we love... but try to be gentle with yourself while you go through this with them. They need you to be ok. Crying isn't bad..it shows you still have a heart. Know you and your cats are thought o with love...

I am hoping all the best for you all. Take care of you too.