I just caught myself lightening up as I started typing this. I know it's disgusting. I did stop once using the patch. I was doing great until something awful happened and I took one of my mother's and lit up, despite the fact it almost made me sick. I stopped after my back surgery on June 7 for 10 days and then my mom died and that night I lit up again. I admit to being a total idiot and a loser. She died from COPD (Chronic Obstruction Pulmonary Disease) and had quit 1 year ago. She was born with weak lungs and should never had started. My dad smoked 3 packs a day for years, then one day, called all his friends to brag that he stopped, threw all his cigs in the trash and never smoked again. That's a real Man (or woman). I have to stop because my back isn't healing quickly enough and I'm sure smoking isn't helping. I just bought the patch again. I try to smoke outside and never around Logan. Good luck to all of us trying to stop., It's such an awful addictive habit. I started in my teens to look "cool". All my friends stopped but me, the nincompoop.