Missy,
Everyone is different. Obviously. I would tell you, in frankness, that I would NEVER go through labor without an epi (and, mine only worked partways anyhow). It isn't because the horror of the pain, though, that is some of it, but, there are many, many people that will tell you it is not that bad, but, it is because WHY do it if you don't have to experience any pain? Trust me, it is still really, really hard work even with an epi. You are not less of a person because you took an epi. Most of us take a medication during many events- having a tooth pulled, when we aren't feeling well, when we want to sleep, when we have minor surgery.

Mommyhood is not defined by whether you took something when you delivered your baby or not. I feel no less of a person/mommy because I chose an epi. I knew from day one that I wanted all the pain medication I could get my hands on.

You want to push yourself? And focus? Fine. I figure the first 8 weeks are all about focus and pushing yourself. Do it then. If you are still feeling like you want to focus and push yourself? Go train for a marathon.

I just want to be at least one person that voices my total support for pain medication. Go EPI!