I know how you're feeling Kay. I had just been happy and exclaiming about our wonderful weather when I checked PT to find Killian had passed away, and then Canilla. I felt inexplicably guilty for being happy moments earlier. But I know they would want us to go on celebrating life, after all that is the very thing our pups are best at, and would want us to do. It is so very hard . It makes us realize how fleeting life can be, but that is all the more reason to celebrate and take joy in the time we have.