I am so very sorry

[carole]

Tina after reading about your last little episode on here , I told myself Tina will be back saying how sorry she is , yet again.

Despite the fact I have empathy for your illness and I really do, it is impossible to condone your childish behaviour, and that is what it is really, a lack of maturity on your part, please continue with the help you so need, you have to grow up NOW for those beautiful precious girls you have.

I understand when you are depressed, it is hard to cope with little everyday things, but depression in itself does not create the kind of things you have done on PT, like lying continually, coming back hoping for forgiveness each time, and then when it is not forthcoming, getting childish and saying well I am going, and never coming back, I mean how many times have we heard that from you.
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It is all very well for you to say the Drama is over , I am leaving, it was you who created this so called Drama, no-one else, that is a cowardly way to go IMO.

You can continue to apologise until the sun shines you know where, but really as PCB pointed out, you have to really prove yourself here, and it will not happen overnite, if you really want to stay, then be mature and accept the responsiblity for your actions, take them on board, deal with it, and move on,and committ yourself to proving to PT members that you mean what you say.

Sometimes I ask myself why I continue to waste my precious time on replying to your threads like this, it is because I hope that maybe one of the things I say may hit hard and sink in, because I know you are a worthwhile person.

You cannot continue this destructive behaviour, it is not fair on yourself, your family or the community on PT, who have IMO been more than patient and understanding with you,you cannot keep playing with other people's emotions, it saddens me terribly.

So many people on PT have given you encouragement, advice, and really care about you, so why do you continually keep slapping us in the face, all we ever wanted to do was help you to get well again.

I for one believe your illness goes deeper than just depression,I and many other's have suffered depression in their lives, and none of us have behaved as you have here, there is more to this than meets the eye.

Tina you have been given more than the time of day here, so many people just keep having faith in you, and giving you third and fourth chances, there comes a point in time where everyone just throws their hands up in defeat and say ENOUGH IS ENOUGH.

Please continue with your therapist, I hope you have told them what has been happening here on PT, as I think this is a very important issue you need to discuss with them,not something to be swept under the carpet, Tina you have to put in some hard work to get results, so keep at it, it is a pity you could not have used PT in a positive way instead of a negative.

GOOD lUCK.