Welcome back Tina Chin up friend! We're all friends here and want to be supportive! Look toward the future; don't dwell on the past or "what ifs." Nothing good will come of that. You've got some challenging but exciting changes.times ahead of you and you need to try and stay positive! I hope with all my heart that the therapy and medication, the support of family and friends, will help you get to that "good" place! {{{HUGS}}}