My grandmother (dad's mom) told me that she had periods while she was pregnant with him and his half-siblings. I had completely forgotten about that 'til this thread - funny, huh?

I have been stressed, but it's been getting better over the last month. Things aren't perfect but they're better than they were in December and early-mid January. So I think if I were eating for solace, I would've been doing it for longer than the last few weeks... don't you? I dunno... I'm clueless now.

I can't say exactly what color my last period was... It wasn't bright red, not pink... it was like a dark, dark maroon that one time it wasn't light. The rest of the time was like a rosey type color, not red but not really PINK either. Like a mauve. (You all never knew you'd learn so much about me, huh?)

Geez, I don't know what to think. I can't imagine taking the test and having it be positive! Shouldn't I have a feeling that I am? Now I'm getting all nervous - I don't know whether to hope it's positive or negative! My husband and I wanted to wait to get finances in order before we started having children so that I could stay home with them... if I am pregnant and we have a baby THIS YEAR ( ), I won't be able to do that... and that would break my heart. But at the same time, I've ALWAYS wanted to be a mommy so it would be so cool if I were... I don't know what to think!!!