Maybe this isn't the best place to post this, but I feel more comfortable here (No offense intended to anyone!)

I feel very sad and depressed as of late. I know I should be happy with my new job and getting my car back and all...

But I'm not

Part of the problem is that I lost my dear Rogue Rattus yesterday. I feel as if I am guilty somehow but I know that there was nothing I could do...She died very suddenly. I kick myself because I don't know why she had to die. My other rat, Cleo is perfectly fine, and Rogue didn't even look sick the day before yesterday.

Remus *and Spook, oddly* have been velcro kitties for about a week now. They really have noticed a change in me, and are working thier cute kitty butts off to try and make me feel better. I guess I was kinda down before Rogue but now its way worse. I go to work as a drone. I'm fairly good at being perky at my job or at least faking it *being a front desk receptionist, I kinda have to put on a happy face* Most of the time though I want to cry.

Sorry...I just needed a shoulder to cry on...hope you all don't mind.