Cass Sweetheart I don't think anything I can say will change things, but I just want you to know I am always here for you, even though its far away, I am so sorry to hear you are feeling so low and everything seems to be turning to custard, but I think maybe you should visit a doctor to see if you need some help with the depression you are having, some of us just continue on, thinking we will come right, and sometimes it is just best to take the bull by the horns, seek help to make us better.

I would move out if you can and find a new place to live, as it sounds like it is not the place for you, remember you are a good person, with a great heart, full of love and compassion, don't let anyone tell you less, LOVE AND HUGS , and Pm me anytime, Take care, look after yourself, and please seek some help and guidance. HEAPS OF HUGS.