i am so frustrated and anxious about my life so far! my whole paycheck for a month goes to my car insurance deal i made with my parents. i wanna make more money so i can have some!!! but i cant find a job anywhere! i also have no money for gas, i literally have to pay in change!!! i was thinking of getting a gas card, but i dont think i would have the money to pay it off at the end of the month. i feel bad because my boyfriend wants to help and give me some extra money, but i dont want him to waste his money on me. i'm gonna be poor forever and i dont wanna take him down too. he says he doesnt care because he loves me, i know its true; but its still hard to get him involved.

maybe its just because its my birthday tomorrow, is why im depressed. but i cant have a party with my friends, because i have no money or anywhere to have it.

**sorry everyone who thinks this is stupid. im sorry that my problems are pretty dramatic for a 17 year old (to be.)**