Your'e story breaks my heart, i feel so bad for you, and wish there was something I could say that would make it all go away, what happened was Tragic, and so wrong, when I see those pics I just want to bawl my eyes out, I agree how could anyone do such a thing.

Sweetie I am sure Max forgives you for not being there, you were not to know his fate, try to forgive yourself, and maybe the nightmares will slowly disappear, I just want to give you a big virtual HUG right now, and tell you everything will be allright.

It is good you came here to tell us all how you are feeling, we are your friends and want to offer any support we possibly can.

I feel your sadness and your pain, remember it was not your fault, I know that does not help much, but try forgiving yourself.