OK here goes

NEGATIVES

Some days I hate the way I look and on other days I like the way I look. I'm 5'5" and weight 250 lbs. I'm not shy about my age or my weight. I KNOW I'm a heavy person. I have tried everything to loose weight and it just does not happen for me. It's not that I'm lazy because I swim laps and walk everyday.

I don't think that I'm pretty. My nose is wide and my eyes have almost no lid to them...which makes my face look like it is tired all the time. My face is horribly old looking.

I don't like that I have a really bad temper but I am very proud of myself as the years have gone by my temper has simmered down quite a bit.

I hate the fact that my moods can turn on a dime. One minute I'm up and the next thing I know I feel like I could just beat the crap out of someone. I am very lucky however that I know this is a problem for me and I have taken the steps needed to help with with this problem.



POSITIVES

I love the fact, that like Catnapper, my teeth are perfectly straight without having to have had braces.

I love that Mark can look into my eyes and not know what color they are going to be today because they change color with my moods. If I cry the turn the greenest green I have ever seen. If I'm stinking mad....they turn so brown that you almost can not see the pupil of my eye.

I'm happy that I got the opportunity to follow my dreams. I went to college and received my degree and immediately received a job offer to be a Flight Attendant with a small regional company in the northeast. I flew professionally for 4 years before leaving to pursue other career options. Now I work in a hospital as a Secretary and I am so proud of the work that I do there.

I am PROUD that I am able to hold my own with the "boys" I can work right along side of the best of them. If a tree needs to come down I can take the chain saw and do it myself. If the lawn needs to be mowed I can do it. I can take the snow blower in the winter and have the driveway cleared before Mark gets home and that way he does not have to do it after being held over at work.

I am happy that my family looks to me for advice...erevything from their cats to how to handle a family situation.

I am proud of myself that I always try to see both sides of the story. I have been told that I am a great mediator...but it really does stress me out sometimes.