I have been reading these threads but I've been too scared to post anything.. but I'm also suffering from depression. I was on Wellbutrin for a while, and it really did help, but I don't want to take pills. I feel totally numb when I'm taking them.. not sad but not happy either. I was on Zoloft very breifly but it made me very very sick.

I get angry a lot. I am suicidal. It is so very hard to share these things with people.. but I think that telling people will help. I dont know. Some days it's just so hard to get out of bed. My kitties help, but at the same time I know they don't really understand. Really, I feel that no one understands.

Right now I'm trying to work towards finding a counselor or psychologist that can help me.