Katie I am sorry to hear you had such a rough day, we have ACC here, if you have an accident at work, then doctors fees are subsidised and if you are permanently injured you also get a payout either lump sum or ongoing, I guess USA is different, Have you not found a doctor you can trust, I can understand how you must feel, but you may have really injured yourself and need some treatment, if you feel worse please consider seeing a health professional.

Sirrahbed it was tough reading what has happened to you in your past, and you are as normal as any of us, we all have our funny little quirks, things that bother us , whatever, your life sounds perfectly regular to me my friend. I am blessed that nothing like that ever happened to me, my anxiety or social phobia is not related to anything bad in my past, I believe it is hereditary simple as that., and although often it is the case, not always as in mine.

You have come along way to overcome what has been nothing but traumatic for you in your life, and I admire your courage.