I need to ask for some prayers/positive vibes.

[shais_mom]

Thanks Amy (and everyone else!!)
Today, we didn't meet at the hospital this morning, b/c the Dr made rounds early and called my dad at home. We as a family have decided to aggressively treat the infection b/c they know what it is and feel they are ahead of it. If we do not see any improvement within 2-4 day we are going to pull the lifesupport. She will not live long after that b/c she won't be able to breath on her own for very long in that condition. She is in excruciating pain, any touch causes her to breath to fast and she fights the vent. My poor aunts were going in and massaging her back and bending her arms so they wouldn't get sore and she started to 'hyperventilate' and fight the vent. The nurses have asked them not to do that, and they sedated her so she would breath normally. She was breathing 4 times faster then the ventilator was set on.
Part of me is trying to prepare myself for the end (is there ever anyway to do that?) but then I feel if I don't have hope and lose faith that I might as well be killing her myself. I know that this is the season of miracles so I am praying for one.
I am not sure if I will make it to the hospital tomorrow, have some things to do before work, but definatley will go down on Tuesday and talk to my parents tomorrow after they come home.

I have asked every angel I know from my life to watch over Grandma. Shaianne, my other Grandpa, and all the RB babies that she has had in her life, any I can think of. I have whispered to Keegan and Kylie that if they have any pull with the big guy to use it. Today when we were discussing things about her treatment and after, my dad got very emotional and couldn't speak, the rest of us were afraid to move to touch him, he would have broke down even more, just sat and sobbed, and my beautiful hearted Keegan went over and sat with her head in Grandpa's lap, and he cried into her fur as I have done so often this week. He was then able to tell us what he wanted. I was sooooo proud of her.
I told Amy last nite that I remember 2 1/2 years ago when Shaianne died I cried into Kylie's fur and said "Kylie, what are we going to do without her?" Now I am doing the same thing with Keegan in regards to Grandma.