GOOD ON YOU KIM, thats the spirit, looking at it as a learning experience, we are never too old to learn, i am so pleased you sound more cheerful and not so despondant, we are all on this earth for a special reason kim, and i think you know yours, those lovely little fluffballs need you and i know you will always be there for them, hugs to you and take care of yourself, have some precious time out and spoil yourself a little, you deserve it.