Kay Ann,
It is very difficult to understand what is going on now. We just need to have faith that God can take the evil that was intended and turn it into good.

My suggestion is to try and find a pastor or clergy person you can talk too. They can hopefully help you with advice on what to do next. Do not let the events of Tuesday succeed in tearing you down. Then the terrorists would of achieved more than what has already happened. My prayers are with you.