Oh Liz, the poem is lovely and of course made me cry AGAIN! Of course I know every word is true. And Les, of course you're right, I know someday I'll find another wonderful pupper. Thank you all for your comforting words and for totally understanding my pain. Unless you go through it, you can never ever fully comprehend it. Thanks you Pam and Sandra and Logan for calling me and letting me sob my heart out! Everytime I think I'm done, I start again, just as bad. Honestly, I am so glad I have my mom here. She's been through so much I don't want her getting sick. We are quite a team. Even with allergies, she wants me to get another dog ASAP, She wants to look starting Monday, but I'll see how I feel. I certainly will have the time to train it now. I thought a few days ago, that it was time to let go, but something stopped me and I'm glad cause Cody had a great Tuesday, he just rallied. Yesterday he ate but around 8p just wasn't himself. I never could believe when people say "you'll know" I always thought that was so much crap, but they were right. I knew the second I looked into his eyes. I made the decsion instantly, no turning back.. My "old" boss just called as did half the office who think I'm just out for a few days. Sounds like more people are being laid off by Friday. I'd never been laid off before in 31 years of working at the same profession. I think, I swear, I'm taking time off and then, much to mom's dismay, I'm going to apply at the zoo, surrounded by animals, I figure Cody always made elephant poop anyway, so what's the difference??? Sigh, I love all of you. No better friends ever existed. {{{{{hugs}}}}