Randi

I'd like to share my experience with you on what you might do regarding cremation at the end. I lost three of my four cats last year in four months..like you the thought of letting them go forever, without having part of them with me was something I couldnt let happen. Keeping them any way I could, was better than not at all...So they were cremated, one by one through arrangements my vet's office made. I had a choice of urns, they were tasteful and I havent seen anything then or since that suited me better. They came with a beautiful little ribbon, with a heart attached you could (if you wanted) have their names put on. They also came with a 'complimentary' plaster cast of their pawprints. I wanted a lock of fur from each, and I have bought a beautiful little trinket box, and I keep the locks, a picture of each, and three crystal hearts to remind me that they are always inside mine and that no one can ever take them away from me again..my little tribute to the many years of love and loyalty they gave me..it has given me comfort in time gone by, that I have them 'with me'.

I have them in a special place..where I can see them everyday..my plan is when my own time comes, I've made arrangements to take them with me..in whatever way I choose to handle that.

I went through a very bad time after that, I came close to feeling that life wasnt worthwhile for a period, nothing mattered, I couldnt even vocalize about them without losing control..but in time, and with the addition of Teddy and Coco..they became wonderful memories and and mine forever.

Make sure you think long and hard about what you can 'live' with..in these circumstances that you werent prepared for..you cannot un do them.

It's so difficult to think straight when you're grief stricken..but this is a forever decision..go with your heart.

Again my sincere sympathy..as difficult as it is..you made the best decision for Fister, in ending his pain, try not to second guess yourself..I felt that guilt as well, I know in my heart I had to do it, and questioned myself thousands of ways and times, but it doesnt help your healing.

Tess