I trapped a beautiful BIG orange boy today. A neighborhood stray with big golden eyes, he was clearly NOT feral, just very scared.

I brought him to the vet to be tested, vaccinated and neutered. While under anesthesia, they discovered he tested positive for Feline Aids. They called me and asked me what to do. What COULD I do???? I had to make yet ANOTHER gut wrenching decision.

I can't get his beautiful gold eyes out of my mind!!! All I keep thinking about is him staring back at me from the trap terrified. I feel so bad that I couldn't be there with him when he crossed the bridge. I feel like I let him down. I ALWAYS am there when any cat I trap, or are owned by, cross over.

RIP sweet Josh. I am SO sorry. I loved you, even for the brief moment. Play hard at the Bridge.