oh yes Ellie is so intuitive, she probably knows what's up because i am blubbering so much, i read the brains of a cat are quite similar with humans ,especially the emotional side of it.

She is just resting, had a drink, no food, and i can see the look in her eyes, that is what really lets me know it is time for her.

I am going to feel so lost without her, you know looking after a sick or terminal cat is very emotionally draining and physically tiring, but i would not trade it for anything, i am just so pleased i could do it for her and my late Ash,they both got two years longer than they would have without the vet care and homecare,that is a long time in a kitties life, and i know rescuing her gave her another 6 to 7 years,so i have to be thankful for that.

Just cannot imagine life without her, just be so empty, despite having my other two kitties, Ellie is extra special, there is just something about her.

Thanks everyone, i am finding this day so hard, watching Ellie,i should try and keep busy, but i just cannot settle to anything, my mind is only on one thing, coming up here on the computer to release my feelings is always a good thing and can only but help me.

I have decided not to be a pet owner anymore once my other two have left me, it is just too hard on me and my coping skills are not what they used to be,.