Karen said what I would, if I could put things in words as well as she can. And lizbud's suggestion to write the positives is nice, starting w/ Luna and Lily O YES! I am sure the 2 L's love you, Kirsten!

Now Marigold's advice, I just LOVE that!

When I have health issues, suddenly everything seems as big as the Alps, and I must climb all of them: at the same time! So I suspect this has a lot to do w/ you feeling so down just now. I pray that you can find some peace through all the health issues.

ANY visit by the police is enough to tie a person in knots! UGH! I am glad you found that receipt.

Yes, you ARE loved, you are a treasured member of this community. And you DO have gifts, special talents, which you and only a few rare others have. Photography, and a command of languages. These things are going to help you through. Lean on us, enjoy your gifts, curl up and listen to the purrs of the L girls.