Aww Honey my heart just goes out to you, a month is no time at all, you must cry as much as you want to, i so wish i could help you through this, it must be the most difficult and unkind thing to happen to anyone, and you don't deserve all this heartache and pain, I hope coming here and sharing with us, helps to comfort you a little and let it all out, that is what your PT family is here for, just know we are all here for you anytime,much love and hugs.