Ash wanted to be outside, but even though it is warm today, there is a real strong wind, i just could not let him stay out there, he did not put up any fight and is asleep on the couch right now,he is too weak to do anything much now,he still responds to his name, i took one last pic on my phone, and it is a good one, but you can see the sadness in his eyes,i have one pic of him already on my start up on the phone when he was much better and you can certainly see the difference.

I have questioned whether i was doing the right thing, especially when he ran upstairs last night, but today i have no doubts it is his time, it is paining me to have to wait until 1pm, one part of me wants to have him here for much longer, the other wants me to be able to put him out of his misery now,horrible feeling, my stomach feels so sick right now.

I made up his little box to bury him in, it is not much, just a cardboard box with some decorations i found, mostly xmas angels and the like,i may post some pics later when i feel i can. Thanks again everyone, i know you are with me at this sad time in my life and i appreciate your love and concern very much.